Do you know that feeling
Of being chocked
Out of breath and struggling for air
But there are no hands around your neck?
Do you know that feeling of being chased
And followed every step you take
But when you turn around
There’s no one bu your goddamn shadow
And you can’t even control it
like it was some sort of a wild snake?
Have you even been anxious all the time
like your life is on the line if you did anything wrong?
Have your emotions been in control for so long
That you don’t notice that they are causing you suffering?
When was the last time you’ve been okay?
When was the last time you’ve had a good night sleep?
How many times do you wake up at night?
Unable to calm yourself down
and feeling like you are drowning so deep
that its too late to pull yourself up?
Do you have irrational fears like I do?
They’re rational for me but not you
Are you afraid of butterflies?
Because I am and of paper cuts too
Do you feel all eyes on you when walk into to a place?
Its a freaking shop and not a stage.
Do you feel them staring at your face?
Does it make you feel like some kinda freak?
That your voice starts to creak
Whenever you try to speak?
Maybe you do and maybe you don’t
But when I tell you these thing
Please don’t look at me like I am a weird statute in a museum
Don’t look at me with judgmental eyes
If you’re not comfortable just say it
Don’t shower me with lies.